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PD took the metal framework and strapped me in; then spun me around and round. He desired me to do some thing, which I still refused, so that he tormented me some, caning, flogging, spinning. The spinning finally did me . It’s a scary feeling, being strapped into a person and feeling helpless, and unable to escape, and being flipped around and round, feeling as if you’re going to fall in your head sometime, inevitably. Exhilarating also in a way, and you think, oh it is not so awful, until it happens again and again, and then you realize no, no more. So I reluctantly gave in, and I hated feeling like I’d given in, so I turned out subdued.Next, he took me out and stuck me right into a hood, and I had a panic attack. I felt as though I couldn’t breathe and was suffocating, and did not believe I could handle it. After a bit of coaxing, I finally relented and consented to try it again. The second time wasn’t as awful, but I still felt as though I was about to suffocate, and that I was fearful. He finally let me out of this hood after what felt like an eternity, and stuck me into a metal frame cage. Then he hoisted me into the air. Alright, so here, another thing; I’m scared to death of heights. Especially in a small cage, and despite my misgivingsI was stuck in the cage, so I cried as he pulled me higher and higher into the atmosphere, before I was almost on peak of the barn. He left me screaming.The day, and it’s almost time to go home. I really feel like I have been relieved of some thing again this excursion. Everytime I’m here, there’s typically a session or 2 that is more intense than the others, and I feel vaccinated later. Usually it’s to perform some type of psychological harm, some type of major anxiety. They challenge me here though, and coax me to face my fears, and I feel like I really do end up facing myself finally, and it’s an excellent feeling. It is something therapy never could do, but it’s fascinating about this world, it gives something really extreme, so from the ordinary, it lets you be somebody for a moment. It more than anything, eases you. And so for me, lets me actually trust people , for a time at least. I can not wait to come back for one more session!You leave the plantation awedwithout needing realized there was a whole different world out there, behind closed doors. It’s time to go back home to the ordinary, to your own life. You are happy to go back, but you have a couple things to contemplate now, thoughts and ideas run on your mind, new doors have been opened to you, your eyes opened. What will you do? The figure says”Goodbye, you are always welcome again!” Maybe you will be back. |
